For my “Just Remembering Shawn” time at Rockaway, I have a different saying each day. May 1, 2015, the sunshine was amazing, the wind was so strong I kept tipping over while placing the letters. This was the best shot I could get. In a way, my being jostled by the wind, pretty much describes this past year. Thanks for this blue bottle, I didn’t have to paint the letters. !!!
I have a lot of beach decorating remembrance ideas floating around, in my head. Hopefully, folks will see that these ideas can be used in a variety of situations, can be done easily, anywhere. Oh and ummm, I am a 3G shopper: I Go. Grab. & Get out as fast as I can. In other words, I do not like any part of the shopping experience. Therefore, I am the worst bargain hunter. That being said, I am sure you bargaineers, can do these ideas fairly inexpensively.
It might be hard to guess what I might make from this mess of craft items, I purchased from Jo-Ann’s. At the typing of this paragraph, I am hoping that my idea turns out. The reveal will be at the end of this post.
I read my ramblings from May 3, 2014. Here is a some of what I wrote: “Shawn, I miss you more than I care to know. I cannot see how life can have an upside. My mind will not stop the accusations of all the wrongs I did to you, or how I failed you, how I fell short, how I didn’t reach out more. So many things. I am told as time goes by I will be able to remember the happier times of your living days. I hope that all those times I begged your forgiveness, that you truly did. I hope I did not make your last days worse because I could not let go. I have it recorded the day you stood 3 times. You were valiant in your efforts to conquer the sufferings your body had endured. Someday, I hope to watch that recording with joy not sorrow.”
And now, Shawn, I am glad I didn’t know then what I know now, about your last days, cuz I know I could not have faced them then. I so dread every moment knowing I have to face your goneness. Truth be told, I HATE THIS !!! I see myself as that lost little lamb: Not in regards to salvation, lost in life’s mire.
Someone asked me why I do beach messages for Shawn. Deep within, I know that Shawn would think they are a cool idea. He would. In a way, there is kind of a releasing that happens, with each one.
Shawn, I miss you so…