I reread the post for Shawn’s b.day. My apologies for being so glum. This was just a very tough Christmas season-the reality of Shawn’s goneness has been extremely piercing.
I watched several Hallmark movies, very few ended sadly. I do not know why I kept hoping I would find some hope, for my situation, in their messages. None was to be found. I know my hope is in the Lord, it’s just that sometimes, when my heart is ripping, I need some kind of salve.
I seem to miss the Christmas window display shows~or maybe those are not made anymore ??? I loved watching the creative detailing !!! It was my delight when I came across several Christmas light shows, on Discovery Family-dish #179. I was late in finding these shows. I recorded as many as possible. I love all the ideas the folks have in mind. I found one I hadn’t deleted, “Extreme Christmas Lights Across Europe”. Mind you, all lights in the house, must be off~the effect is so much prettier. Hopefully, I will remember to check ahead of time and record ALL shows about Christmas light/decorating, next fall.
I left for Rockaway, January 1, at 1 0 AM. I figured most folks would be sleeping after bringing in the new year. As I made my way towards the zoo, the road seemed slick and the left side was not safe to drive in-for me. I made my way to the right, as soon as I did, a car zoomed past me on my left.
I took the road towards Tillamook, off to my left a car had gone off the road into a ditch. I was determined to drive extra careful. As I approached the Pacific Coast Range, the road seemed to be worsening. It wasn’t long until I saw a line of cars heading west, ahead of me. There must have been about 20 of us. We were averaging 20 mph. I was grateful for the snow plow rig, at the front of the line. I looked to my left, the east bound road looked awful. All along the road was evidence of work that had been done quite a lot earlier that morning. I was glad I was not car #1, I was the last one. Then, a big pick-up came behind me. My drive became stressy. The pick-up driver was very antsy. When we were at the top of the range, the snow plow rig pulled over~bummer !!!
I had gotten to Rockaway too early to check in. I decided to check the shore. It amazes me how different the beach looks at each visit. I was trying to figure where I would be doing my beach decorations. The water was almost to the stairs and was very robust. So, I decided to take Blotto and get a cute photo of a Christmas decoration in Garibaldi.
Every photo I viewed, I remembered clearly the moment it was taken. I was shocked as each image revealed the severity of Shawn’s situation. Up until then, a fact I could not give into. Shawn did not look like Shawn. I do not say this to be mean. It was very difficult to look at each photo. When it came time to delete a Shawn photo, off my phone, my gut wrinkled. Each delete was another punch of reality regarding Shawn’s goneness~~~how I hate this grief journey !!! Needless to say, it took me a long time to get through the photos. I thought I had gotten most photos, off my phone and transferred to my laptop. When I checked my phone, several hours later, all the photos I had deleted, were still on my phone. I decided to see if Bob could help me, when I got back home.
Frustrated with my problems transferring photos, somehow, I landed on some I had totally forgotten:
On one of our no drive days, I looked up Facebook posts from Shawn’s Harborview days, I copied and moved them to a place they would be safe (?).
I think all the computer smart people (Microsoft, Apple, Google, etc.) who implement updates, do not get it: updates may be fine, but do not change my writings, calendars, phone lists, precious photos, etc. !!! If I want my stuff changed or deleted, I will do it !!! You techies need to learn how to not change my personal stuff when you are updating system workings !!!
We have had some unexpected days off, because of bad weather. Just a side note. I have gotten tired of hearing how Oregonians are bad drivers in bad weather. Here’s the thing: we get freezing rain here, driving on ice is difficult !!!
So, all you drive-it-alls, lay off !!!
I have been grateful to not have to worry about my passengers being safe while waiting for the bus !!!