Just Sharin', My Grief Challenges, Special Videos

A Couple Movies October 8, 2016

I have been down in the dumps, a lot, lately. I am hoping to write about various issues in a week or so. The mire is quite thick. Maybe I just cannot let Shawn go ??? Whatever that means.  I came across a couple movies, on TBN. Sometimes it is helpful to see my emotions brought forth in a movie format. Most movies are just too unreal.     I am very frustrated with myself, as I am trying to figure out who I am or what good I can effect.  

  https://youtu.be/rLYmku9OJ6A    This movie is titled Courageous. It deals with more than a child’s death. It shows how parents can use their grief in a positive way.

This next movie hit hard. I have thought, many times, that I wanted one more conversation with Shawn, or would I ? Would it be too hard to say goodbye again ??? The movie is: Figure in the Forest: https://youtu.be/NnPBfRYO33c 

I came across a movie called: Rabbit Hole. I have seen this clip. I do not know if I could watch the whole movie, yet.  https://youtu.be/8V5904uauqg

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Melissa Having Fun !!! November 29, 2015

Ziggy and his cute little happy dog. I loved them as a young girl. Always made me smile!:

Before you view this cute tell;  our family takes the handling of guns very serious. I, highly, respect the help and advice my brother-in -law gives, when helping with target practice. His hunting skills are superior, as are his skills with heavy duty equipment. His quick and accurate  reactions saved my sister’s life, during a motorcycle situation.

The reason this video is special: 1. It makes me cry/laugh. 2. I love hearing Melissa chuckle laugh. 3. Most important: The recordings I had for Shawn, on a flip phone, were lost. The ache from that is excruciating.    I am not being negative, but I needed to make sure I had something with Melissa. I love this recording of her and her cute voice.  I think it would be a good thing for folks to have at least one good recording of their special folks.   Oh man !!! Why didn’t I do simple records on my Thanksgiving trip. I am making a note to self.

I am just throwing this out there, maybe someone can give me an idea. I asked my grandson what is something he would love. I asked him the first thing that popped into his head. I was expecting a whole list of things.  After about a 3 second pause he said. I want one of those necklaces that when you open it there would be a photo of my dad (Shawn) on one side and myself on the other side-so my dad could be close to my heart and I could see him anytime.  He indicated the size with his fingers-about the size of a quarter.        I have done some research. The lockets I have found are too girly and small.  Maybe, someone who comes across this post might be able to tell me  where to look.

I will end with this cute tell:   https://youtu.be/QMTE9dj38FI

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From February 1989 February 15, 2014

Back in February 1989, I wanted to do a different kind of Valentine for Bob, Melissa and Shawn.  I wrote the words, my sister-in-law, Carol, did the calligraphy, for each plaque.

Bob’s plaque had been packed away, until this past summer. I did not pack it correctly.  Maybe I will be able to fix it.

Melissa’s plaque has survived a few moves.

Shawn’s plaque survived the fire. A little smoke and a couple of darkened areas.

 I had chosen the scriptures, for the 3 plaques, before I did the composings,  but I have no idea why,  back then,  I chose what I did—???

Genesis 22:1-12.  Verse 12.”And He said”Do not lay your hand on the lad, or do anything to him, for now I know that you fear God, since you have not withheld your son, your only son,from Me.”

Isaiah 40:31: “But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.”

Here is my read of Shawn’s plaque.